i only write in this when i'm upset.
and i am.
but i suddenly no longer feel like talking.

all i can say is
it's not my fault
i didn't say that shit.
it's not my fault.
is it?

it's really been ages.
well over a year anyways.
and look what else i found http://backtrackxx.livejournal.com/
i hate my past
then again i hate my present too. perhaps the future as well.

fuck my muffins.
it's 11:06
I climbed into bed around 9:30 and couldn't sleep
so some how, i ended up here.
i read through my old entries and the MCR one made me happy [:
i started thinking about the next two concerts i'm going to and i started getting pretty excited.
they're like 53 days away.
[:
gah so much has happened in a year
how could i possibly fill this all in now
*twirls around*


i feel like soy milk.

Okay. You knew this was coming.

Now that I'm somewhat rested and I don't have a headache.

So.. I woke up at like fucking 6:20 and started on the caffine. That was... Intresting. I was a fucking spazz all day. I'm never like that. I guess it was the caffine and that I've been waiting for that day for three years.
So.. I guess I finished getting ready at like 10. Then I was online. Then watched the goonies and Mikela and Hallie got to my house and fucking stole all my tampons so they could hide their camaras under them. Crazzy kids. But it worked, they didn't go through my bag.
Then Caroline got to the house and we all got into her car which was warm and nice. Then we had to stop to get my cousin. So we had 8 people in a car that held 7 people so me and Hallie and  Vicky were all like on eachother because Mikela had to stay way from us towards the window so she didn't get sick.
And Hallie yelled at me for trying to break her sex braceltss xD
*Cackle*

Finally, like fourty minuets later we got to the nassau collisum. and we got in line.
and my mommy was yelling that I was going to be cold adn I was like "Nope, I'll do jumping jacks."
Famous last words. It was fucking freezing.
So we had been in line for about twenty minuets when the girls behind us wanted to go get McDonalds. So we held their place for them. Thats when we met these two really awsomee girls that helped Hallie fix her Frank eyes and thought I was crazzy.
Haha. Not always a bad thing.
Then the girls from McDonalds came back and we all started talking. They had seen Rise Against crossing the street which is pretty awsome.
Then my mawm called to see if we wanted anything ffrom McDonalds. 
So they got Mikela, Lizzy, Vicky, our new friendss, and me coffee.
Which was amazing, even though Hallie kicked mine over.
But once you stand outside in the cold for about an hour, anything warm makes you feel a whole lot better.
So I drank about two cups of coffee. More caffine for the insane child.The whole warm fuzzy feeling didn't last long though.
We all rotated out of the van, except lizzy, who had a set seating ticket and bgave up on us.
My poor ittle 11yearold. [Says the thirteen year old who just happens to be shorter then her]

Then the line moved up about an hour later and we were all more compacted closer to the dooors.
Thats when Hallie started talking to these guys that were just as obsessed with Brand New as her.
I don't think they liked me very much..Whoops.
Then it started getting dark and we all froze to death.
Well thats besides the point, but when it was 7 they opened the doors. That was four and a half hours after we had gotten there.

They didn't search my bag because I took mikea's advice and put tampons on top xD
Haha.
So we got right in, threw our coats and stuff to my mom and ran down this long hallway. We litterally ran.

Me Hallie Mikela and Vicky all held hands so we weren't split up.
Thats when we found the girls we had met out side and we were going to try to stay together through the concert but once we got
our wristbands on and ran inside where the concert was we didnt' see them.
But we got really close upfront in the middle of Ray and Gerard. 

We stood there for about a half an hour talking then Rise Against came on.
They were okay. I'm a fan of theirs, but it was really really really screamy to the point where you couldn't understand what he was singing. But their set was pretty cool.

Then there was about half an hour inbetween and the dude from z100 came on and a ton of people booed him.
xD haha.
When  MCR came on Gerard was wheeled out on a gurney which was fucking amazingg.
Their set was amazzzing.
They played the full black parade record including blood.
Then the black parade was done and MCR was on "If you're into that kind of shit" is how Gerard put it.
They had taken off their costumes and were back in MCR two years ago clothes.

We were all just like ""holllyfuck" so they played like half of revenge and it was amazing.
Then when that was over I caught one of Bob's drumsticks and a girl tried to grab it from me and I was like *walks away*
Vicky just kindof stared at me. She thought I was going to pass out because during MCR"s set I fell on her.

Then people started leaving and me and Vicky who hadn't got seperated went to find Mikela and Hallie.
We found Mikela but not Hallie.

Inbetween there somewhere this kid stopped me and offered to give me wetnty buckets, his shoes, his carkeys and his car for  the drum stick. I was like "FuckNO."
Then I spotted Hallie on the side with some security people who then called Paramedics.
Well, I'm not supposed to go into much detail about what happened because Hallie kindly asked me not to and told me if pictures of her in a collar and on a stretcher circulated the internet she wuold kill me.
So needless to say, she was taken out in an ambulance and taken to the hospital.

Her mom finally got to the hospital and we were allowed to go about 2 hours later.
Then me Vicky lizzy and my mom and their mom went out for breakfast/dinner around 3 AM.
We got home at 4 and we were all dead tired.

It was fuckingg amazing. I would do it again anyday. My mom might get tickets for a PA show about 200 miles away cause she enjoyed it so much.
Well.. I got frost bite or somthing on one of my toes and I can't really feel the whole thing so thats kindof intresting xD
lol. but the four and half hours were totaaalyyy worth it.